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Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Ms. Mary Sunshine has left the building..

...momentarily at least. I was so happy about my last step in my reconstruction. Thrilled really. I couldn't believe I would finally be completely normal. I called the PS office to confirm my surgery date and ask about whether I could go ahead with the areola tattoos (since I'm just getting tattoos and no nipple recon). The scheduler says:

"I think we're going to wait on that and just do the revision this time"

I'm sorry but WTF?

I've been so patient and understanding through this whole process. Did I bat an eye when I got my expander removed? Nope. Did I cry, cuss, and scream when I was told I had to wait super long to get my implants? Nope. Did I throw something at my doctor when she kept me in the hospital longer than expected so I could get IV antibiotics and I missed the Valentine's Day date I was so looking forward to? NO.

So why don't I get a say so now?

Apparently it's just "too much at one time." I'm pretty sure I could handle it but WHATEVER. I guess it's not my decision to make.

I know the tattoos are no big deal. I know that I can get them whenever I want too. I just really want this to be over. I'm struggling to keep my calm and not burst into tears and curl up in the fetal position.


1 comment:

  1. I am sorry to hear that you are unable to get it all done and over with! :(
    You will get there though, I promise and then it will seem like forever ago that you had to go through all of this!
    Sending positive thoughts your way, and big hugs that everything will be okay!